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Does the title mean anything to you? I do. (it means I'm getting cross-eyed after staring at the comp for almost a whole day... duh.) finally, the fateful day has come where I can finally get sum $$!! (hey, wait a minute, that isn't something new!! You do that every month!! >_> )

way lao eh.. Boring topic....

what else should I say? I stay at home for almost 2 and half months now and I'm getting STALE. With little hope of meeting my friends (I mean the whole group...) I know that they are busy with school, orientation or whatsoever.. So I have to schedule the meeting time suitable for them..
but at least tml going out with Rebecca to go my hair treatment... The next day, go out with Hajar.. Saturday got RSP meeting and sun... Go out to East Coast... This week is the busiest I can be.. This gotta be the highlighted events during this dull period of time. (me meditating? yeah right..)

Long time haven't go there... always cooped up at home like one bewildered cat.. MIaow.



aish.. How I wish I could get that work call earlier... At least got sumting to do with to occupy my time. Been exercising, doing housework, cracking my brains over my resume, stuck at my cover letter, and staring at all the job lists that I added to my acct in Asiaone.com.

what else? helping mom cook dinner at 7 AM in the morning.. I know I'm weird. BTW, my mom works the whole day and I haf nuthing to do.. So yeah.

been thinking about how to make changes to my makeover, and been getting some feedback from Rabbit and HAjar. now reading through the tips of the image book or total image impact.

Everyday, my usual routine goes like this: help mum, eat breakfast, switch on comp, surf the 3 sites: a kpop site, friendster, and blogspot.com. (but stop ashort of login in) Been praying for my friends, hope that they are well, happy and stress-free. been consoling my friends when they are down, (at least got reason to go out..)

ANd...

Getting StALe...

side-effects of being cooped up at home for a long time:

1) Blinking NO IDEA which day of the week now and what DATE it is now..

2) Find ways to entertain myself alone...

3) Being broke means the activities you want to do are restricted.

4) just now missed a call. GOT Friggin no idea who it was, I rushed to the room only to find the call ended. Anxious that there was a potential job caller, I called up the recruitment agency only to find that nobody phoned. Aish.. I wonder who was the caller..

5) getting a headache now and feeling my brain getting rusty and rustier. (is there such a word??!! o.0 )

6) my wonderful sense of humour going down the drain... literally.



All these side-effects lead to ....

One BOred CAveWoman or CAve... CAt. o.0

just found out...

today when I woke up, my family left to do their own things, mum went to exercise, my dad went to Johor, My sis left to do something om her own, which I can never figure out what she's trying to do, since she works, and also haf her own activities to attend. Btw, my mom couldn't recognise me when I'm all dressed up when I went for the interview. neither do my friends. I need to go hair salon desperately.. I think if I went out with the state that my hair is in now, the hairstylists wld definitely faint.. >.<
now waiting for the fateful call from the recruitment centre. and I'm not sure when and where I get a job from.. hopefully the working hours doesn't clash with the RSP meeting on next coming Sat.
Speaking of jobs, Sab already got a job.. I wonder how the second interview went for her.. betta ask her later..

now listening to one of my all-time fave artists, Seven, a Korean male artist. his second album just gets better, he's becoming the best hottie in my list. even his style hadtotally changed, this time even more surprising and more jaw-dropping. I cldn't believe that it was him when I saw his cover pictures on his album...

later got to do some of the things that I intend to do for a while now... a cover letter, got to read again some self-improvement bk exercises and keep me occupied throughout the day..
'm looking forward to the day when I can finally go to the hair salon with my sis.. Found a great hair salon which offers gd service (from what I see) and the products that I always wanted to try but scared whether its range don't suit my hair.. and cut my hair, get a fringe.. better get some $$ from my dad and more $$ to support me when I finally find a job. it's a bit scary, but I will try my best and push myself out of my comfort zone and try new things.

well, that's what I have to say for today...

ciao!!

tiring..

another day has passed, this time I was quite tired... Tired from surfing the net, tired from going to International Plaza to find work from a recruitment agency, standing on my feet during the long journey home.. not only that, my iron flared out the moment I switched on it, and immediately switched of the main circuit. what can I say, what turned out to be an ordinary day is filled with ups and downs.. even at home. me gonna find work.. and yesterday I found a new self help book that matched my desire.. to have a total makeover and I wanna make sure all my friends won't believe that's the new me.. I found a lot of handy tips, and I better make sure that I use them...

another week is going to pass, and again, I predict that I won't see my beloved friends again... (I say, how many weeks already? Let me count... 6 weeks and counting.) even the person whom I wanna meet most didn't reply or anything.. SIAN!! >.<

however, I'm gonna use this time to get some soul searching... get a new make over, change my bad habits, and had already figured out what I planned to do next... oh yeah, reorganise my things.. well, better get going...

Adios!!

another day has passed..

Another day has almost come to an end as I'm typing this diary entry. woke up early bleary-eyed to help mum cook dinner. ( I know it's weird but mum works in late morning till late afternoon) then switched on the comp to play the FTTS song, missing you. in English version. Blasting the speakers out loud, I spent the morning finishing up the letters for the 13th excos. during breaks, I sang my lungs out with this song. (no wonder the neighbours closed their windows..) and were totally late for meeting time. Supposed to meet at 1 pm, but ended up meeting Sabrina at 2. btw, she also came at that time...

boarded the bus 105 from Jurong East Bus Interchange and along the journey, both of us were filled with feelings of nostalgia and nervousness. the thought of us going back to school and seeing our juniors doing all those work.. Ahh..

Spotted Faizal and Tom when we bumped into our fellow ex-counsellor. Alamak, forgot her name.. and went straight to the staff room to get our certificates and did sum chitchatting with our teachers. When we saw them leading a class, we hooted and applauded them. Didn't see Mdm Hasnah, but saw Mr Anthony waiting to photocopy something. At the same time, I laughed when he gave funny reactions when we asked him for donations..

then we stopped by at the photocopying room to copy several (no.. many) awards and certificates achieved by Sabrina. The more I saw the awards, the more re-enforced the belief in me that Sabrina is a natural go getter girl in life. I was quite awe-struck at that time.

it was 3 plus when we finished. then We headed towards the S.C. Room, but our hopes went downhill as we saw the sign, Meeting in Progress. We stared at the room located besides the S.C. Room. It turned out to be a retailing room. It's interior design was visually stunning. Ater much discussion, we decided to gatecrash the meeting, no matter what the sign says..

Sabrina went inside the room first, earning surprised laughter and greetings. then I popped my head inside. Unknown to me, Sab had went further inside and didn't support the door. So needless to say, it closed onto me.
I greeted everyone sitting around the table. I glanced at the room. Sab exclaimed that nothing had changed. I agreed with her. I searched in my bag, for the letters.

I headed to the nearest table to get all the letters and soon, they were talking to each other once again. I interrupted them, and explained the purpose. I gave all the letters to all except Gary and Faisal and Kelvin. (Kelvin mia..) I raided the fridge with Sabrina, glancing at all the biscuits and the chocs. Shidah asked us aloud about our results. When it came to my turn, I made a resigned face and made a 'die' sign with my finger.
Somebody asked me so what was I doing right now. ( actually I tot the qn went like 'so what I intend to do now?')
and the answer popped out of my mouth without me realising it. "Working." (When actually I'm not)
I chatted with them for a while and headed out of the room.. I felt that it was quite short and believe that it lasted for 10 -15 mins.. Coz both of us felt that they shld get on with their meeting.

continuation

well, back to Sabrina and 4PM, we met guys like Hashim and Zamri, when joined forces together, can make the whole group howl in laughter with their jokes. Remembering about that makes me smile, ( Clipping a cheeseburger to the card holder which can be worn ard the neck?) Tsk, Tsk.

Zamri has a nice (that's an understatement) Honda space wagon, exactly the type of car I want when I have a family. We went to Geylang to start our volunteering work, by selling coupons to ppl. It was hard work, but with our perseverance, we managed to sell a couple of them each. I spotted a man in his mid thirties who has a friendly face expression, and approached him. I wasn't expecting him to fork out $$ but when i said that I was from 4PM, he immediately took out his wallet without hesitation. but our hopes deteriorated when he took out a $50 note, saying that he didn't have change. I went to my friend, and asked her for change. Sadly, she didn't. the man went away, after saying that he might be coming back with change, but he cldn't promise. so we went other places to try our luck but no avail. then as we passed to the same junction where we met the man earlier. we headed to the carpark to meet the guys. To our surprise, the very same man chased after us, yelled and waved a ten dollar note after us. we were bowled over by his actions.

During the journey to Tampines, I began to crack jokes and made them laugh. My jokes complemented Lyiana's. and before we knew it, we had arrived at Tampines Mall. we continued with our purpose.

we saw Kak Fara and she joined us on the way back to 4PM. She approached me and began to talk to her.

back at 4pm, we snapped some pics, talked some more and played around with each other. I left with Sabrina to head for home. but we bumped into another guy whom I didn't know and we boarded the bus together. As usual, we talked nonstop again.

this has been a great day for me...

relaxing after a break.

I always wondered why does the world seemed to be sooo small. In life, you're bound to meet the friends that you lost touch with. Everyday, surprises are bound to happen. Recently, I bumped into ppl whom I know, or just strangers that came to the same school as me. (who are fast becoming friends with me.) also, this saying rang true for me. the One whom I always wanted to meet doesn't get the chance, but the ppl whom I didn't want to meet or I least expected them appeared into my life out of nowhere. oh well..

Just came back from volunteering activities at 4PM. (A malay org.) Woke up early, was shot awake with a blast of cold water, and dragged myself out of the house b4 meeting Sabrina.

both of us were late, and got to 4PM late. along the journey, we talked non-stop about our lives, problems and basically anything under the sun. Sabrina has figured out what she wants to do with her life. And finally, I have come to the conclusion stage. After days of worn out thoughts and considerations, I have finally settled the decision. I will find work now, and I save up $$ for my course fee. (Time to be independent already.) During this month, I received scoldings, praise and advice along the way. I felt proud when i received praise, cried to myself when I got scolded and reflected my bad behaviour to the past events, and got the answer whom I had been wondering. and I resolved to myself that I will change into a brand new person, a total image changeover. someone whom my friends will never think that I would do. It's gonna be hard to change my old habits, but I will change. No doubt about that. gotta draw up a list of things that I need to develop a habit with..

ahh..

As I am typing this, I am powered by the melodius voices of two dynamic duo, BRian and Fany, members of Fly To The Sky. Who must be wondering who are they? Well, let me tell you.. They are Korean.

Their voices re-enforced the fact why I absolutely luurrvvee Kpop. Actually, I knew about the a few years ago, but didn't listen to them as I favoured the group, H.O.T (another Kpop grp)

I saw their performance as I clicked onto a link, curious to know what's in store. The moment they sang their hearts out, I was hooked.

now, I am a converted FTTS fan. No doubt about it. Not much happened today, just did some housework, saved some FTTS perfs, watched Shrek the movie on the vcd. (I love EDDIE Murphy.) He can really make the donkey character come alive with his gifted voice and found out that he cld rap..

wah liao eh.. new ppl to idolise today.. I'm so happy!! (Duh..)

gotta go, wanna watch FTTS perf again.. (and again.. and again..)